....and now for the BAD news!!!

Bloody hell!!! this is a BAD painting day, I have been VERY on to it as far as sticking to my times of when I paint during the hours of daylight but there doesnt seem to be anything I can do when its just not going to plan and I want to throw everything in the room at the f*#KING canvas and scream and cry like a mad crazed woman then cut my ears of and get drunk or the other way around!

Im trying to find the level headed person somewhere within my self but the rage Im feeling and the uselessness Im feeling are attacking me SO badly today that I dont think I can compete!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!! there I said it on the blog I HATE that I cannot seem to find my painting mojo anywhere!!! !!@!!@!@!@@%MU90MU90MU890IOU[

The good news is I made it to the poolhouse!!!...and the canvas IS up and tomorrow I will be applying the paint and ravishing the canvas to become something for some one else.

So tired and trying trying to come up with ideas but more than that need to KICK my butt out to the poolhouse and do some ACTUAL work...!!! Gearing up for it though [have been saying this for SIX months!!] WILL be out there by this week PROMISE!

Where and how to begin the blogged life?

Starting with Auckland who will find this?