I am on the track to somewhere... where that where is is anyones guess right now but Im sure its going to be grand in some description.

The day outside the poolhouse is dark and Im loving it, sometimes a dark day is a great day to work with loads of bright color. Grey is the perfect back drop

Going to post the updated version of the curves painting, its finished and I will be dropping it to Laundromat gallery today for the ChCh fundraiser thing

GREAT advice from darling Anja on the weekend.... thank GOD she went to Elam!! told me to just get on with it and stop being so darn precious, that if Michael Parekowhai were here looking at my work every second word would be 'F' and to burn them out!!! so going with this advice and to put a time allowance on each..... stop being so DARN PRECIOUS!!

things are going well ,apart from the stinking hot weather and an unlined tin studio that pretends to be a sauna Got back into it yesterday and going well.

I find it so SO cool how things [events] align themselves when on the right track, the non crazy in your head voices speak softly and clearly and MUST be listened too ,ok now I sound crazy mwahahahahaha you know what I mean FATE

This, is what I am working on at the moment although not a brush has licked it today, will post finished product within the week, late R

BOO HOOwhoooo..

Yep another poos day in the pool house...its just not happening and I scribbled in my journal like a baby having a major tantrum! The gardeners were next door doing the gardens [weird] and I hope they didn't hear me but it would be my own fault if I embarrassed myself because really I should know better than to set foot inside the pool house when my god damn mother f@#king hormones are at work.... so nothing great good or in different to report just another crap day of nothingness!

I'M BACK...

The only person I am really coming back to appears to be me! but that is ok...its really a diary to let me know what my mind has been doing etc etc...

So since I last visited I have sold sold and sold paintings...great news for me! I am doing an exhibition in October the same time as rugby world cup in the hope of getting some overseas interest???? and more importantly SALES....

Hve been on a trip to SF and Vegas and got myself a whole pile of reference material, on the wish list to visit is NY again as want to get some good pics there too, but perhaps next time on a plane will take my by that way....lets see what I can upload on dial up [the gals have soaked up all the broadband on games erghhhh.....

....and now for the BAD news!!!

Bloody hell!!! this is a BAD painting day, I have been VERY on to it as far as sticking to my times of when I paint during the hours of daylight but there doesnt seem to be anything I can do when its just not going to plan and I want to throw everything in the room at the f*#KING canvas and scream and cry like a mad crazed woman then cut my ears of and get drunk or the other way around!

Im trying to find the level headed person somewhere within my self but the rage Im feeling and the uselessness Im feeling are attacking me SO badly today that I dont think I can compete!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!! there I said it on the blog I HATE that I cannot seem to find my painting mojo anywhere!!! !!@!!@!@!@@%MU90MU90MU890IOU[

The good news is I made it to the poolhouse!!!...and the canvas IS up and tomorrow I will be applying the paint and ravishing the canvas to become something for some one else.

So tired and trying trying to come up with ideas but more than that need to KICK my butt out to the poolhouse and do some ACTUAL work...!!! Gearing up for it though [have been saying this for SIX months!!] WILL be out there by this week PROMISE!